Courtship

It has been a long time since I blogged.

Anyway, I usually avoid writing about BGR as it is a rather touchy topic (no pun intended). I used to enjoy probing my friends' experiences regarding this issue, because people usually don't share about it unless you ask them. And it often brings about surprising facts. Especially when an "innocent looking" friend of yours admits that he/she can't exactly recall of the number of people they have dated.

But as I got older, I've come to realise that not everyone likes to talk about BGR, especially those who are currently single. (Either not attached yet or previously gone through the pain of a break-up)

When I was younger, perhaps during my Junior College days, I used to think it was daring and cool to rush into a relationship with someone you fancy (not that I had much luck anyway). People around you often say things like "Just follow your heart, don't be afraid, just go for it, you will regret if you don't". On hindsight, its a load of rubbish I must say (more on that later).

This is kinda embarrassing to confess, but some months back, I actually took out a piece of paper and tried to count the number of "dates" I've been on. But I soon gave up, because how do you actually define a date? Is a simple meeting with a girl considered a date? Or must the meeting involve some sort of mutual "flirting"?

After some thought, I feel that arguing over the definition of a "date" doesn't solve anything. Rather, it boils down to the intention of a date. And not just my intention, but also the intention of the other party. Because my intention of a meeting might be to "impress" the girl, but her intention might be to meet up to shop for some food because her refrigerator is empty. So, what is a date? Or more importantly, what should be the intention of a date?

I know some people may roll their eyes when I say this. But I personally believe that dating without marriage in mind is selfish. Why do I feel so strongly about this? Because if I date someone for the sake of mere attraction, but deep inside, I don't see her as a potential marriage partner. I'm basically dating someone, knowing that we will break up at the end of the day.

I'm not saying that we can know for sure if we will end up marrying the person we date. No one can be sure of that, especially at the initial stage of a relationship. However, when we decide to take that step to date someone, we could ask ourselves "Do I see myself marrying that person?" If not, save yourself the pain of an inevitable break-up. Furthermore, its better to marry late than to marry the wrong person.

Who Is She?

Her eyes are like diamonds that are shiny and bright
Her hair is so soft and black as the night
Her legs are long and her body is slender
When you hold her close she is warm and tender

Hiding amongst the shadows so tall
Looking much closer she's not there at all
Always in trouble with her curious way
She stays out all night and sleeps in all day

Creeps into your room and sits up on your bed
Gives gentle kisses on your nose and your head
Always expects you to open the door
There isn't a sound as she walks on the floor

She will not come over when you call
Walks straight past as if you're not there at all
If you want to work she wants to play
Doesn't care if you forget her birthday

Is she your wife or is she your lover
Is she a friend or is she your mother
She is none of those things I can tell you that
This beautiful creature is only the cat

(by Virginia Gronow)

Random Entry

Although I'm disappointed that my Fujitsu Laptop has a couple of cracks on the outside, I'm generally impressed that it is still working fine after 2.5 years of careless handling by me.

I'm getting a rugged Thinkpad next time.

Sigh... I did badly for the drama audition. I've no idea why I was so darn nervous!!!! I almost choked halfway, missed out a few sentences and lost most of the expression needed. I guess I've only myself to blame for not being calm enough. It's something that I must learn to do.

Anyway, although it didn't go well, I'm thankful for this chance.

Valantine

For God so loVed the world,
That He gAve
His onLy
BegottEn
SoN
That whoever
Believes In Him
Should Not perish,
But have Everlasting life.

We did a study on 1 John 4:1-12 on Sunday.
verse 11 says "Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another."
Loving with our own strength will always bring dissappointment. Our love for others should instead be a response of God's love for us.

I'm grateful

I'm grateful for
- Having a God who loves me
- Having an understanding and doting family
- Being able to be in the Mechanical Engineering (Design Stream) despite my below average results
- Getting into an elective which allows me to explore and experiment with my interest in Drama

I will work hard and honor God with the opportunities that He has given me.

One of my old time favourites

Got to be up by 7 tomorrow, but couldn't sleep. Something is bothering me. Anyway, decided to watch one of fav videos, it reminds me that there are people out there who face greater struggles.

Struggling to see a path

Often, I really don't know what God's plan is. Or what He wants me to do regarding it. I'm just doing what I deem is appropriate.